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Mom Life

I knew being a mom would be hard. I mean it's a given. That's all everyone tells you when you're pregnant. They also tell you it's the best thing in the world. Which is true.

But they don't tell you just how hard it really is.

I means it's beyond rough.




Especially the first twelve weeks. I mean your baby was comfortably in the womb for practically nine months. Then they come into this world. A world we can barely comprehend ourselves. Then we expect them to be fine. To be able to sleep alone. To nap alone. To be alone period. Dear God, is it rough having your newborn scream and cry when you put her down for a second. It's not easy. Sometimes you have to put her down so you can take a sip of water.

It sucks realizing you have literally given up yourself. No more taking that nap you wanted. No more taking long showers and baths every night. Hell I've had to give up my daily cup of hot tea in the morning. I just don't have time.

And for all those peopl…

Growing Up & Regrets

Everytime I leave this blog for a long period of time and open it up, I want to cringe. I look over all my old posts and wonder, why the hell did I post that????And then I remember that I was still growing up. Though aren't we always still growing up. There's never been a moment in my life where I woke up one day and said, hmm now I feel like an adult.The truth is that you never truly do. You just feel more like yourself. When I was a teenager, I always felt so lost. I tried sticking with this blog as hard as possible. But I just couldn't do it. No matter how many times I logged back in and promised I would stick with it, I wouldn't. I had so many things going on in my head. Whether I was stressed out over my job or family and friends. I could never learn to cope with my feelings. I would just disappear from the world and hope it would all go away.But so much has happened as I've grown up. Hell, I just had a baby about six weeks ago. God is she the best thing to ev…